Tuesday, March 6, 2012


We started our homeschooling journey 7 years ago! Hard to believe it's been that long! Tink started out in Kindergarten in WA state and then at Christmas time we moved from WA to VA and Mr. M deployed. That 6 months of school in VA was horrible. I watched my beautiful butterfly who loved to learn wilt away into nothingness and not want to learn anything. I didn't know what to do! We had numerous meetings with her teacher, the school counselor and other school officials. Nothing mattered. The teacher was terrible. When I tell my teacher friends about how Tink was treated, they are appalled! It certainly wasn't the idea I had in my head of what school was going to be like for my child. It wasn't just the teacher either, the whole school administration did not match up with the education we wanted for our child.

I knew people who homeschooled, they all had pretty great kids. But I couldn't homeschool...I had no idea how to do that! I don't know how to teach! I mean teaching her to talk and walk and go to the bathroom on the toilet and the abc's and counting and reading... really didn't count! Did it? So after much prayer and being scared to death...we took the plunge!

We chose to go with ABeka. I love ABeka! It has been a wonderful thing for our whole family, for the most part. The last couple of years, the girls have done the DVD lessons, which was great for a time. This year, we are all really bored with it! So we are thinking about changing it up next year entirely and trying some other curriculum's! This is terrifying! I almost feel like I did when I first pulled Tink out of school!

The most wonderful thing in the world though, is being surrounded by an amazing group of homeschooling Mom's who are encouraging, helpful, and FULL of information!! I am SO looking forward to learning about all the other wonderful curriculum's that are out there and choosing what is best for our family! We love homeschooling, I am SO glad that God chose this path for us, and I am really looking forward to bringing our family even closer together!

Saturday, March 3, 2012

I forgot how it feels...

When Mr. M first got commissioned, he went right to a ship. It was out here in WA and we were only here for 9 months before it did a 'round the world' tour and ended up in VA after their deployment. He was on that ship for 2 years and then went right to another ship in VA and was gearing up for a deployment cycle when he got picked for an IA to Iraq. That was a shocker! He was gone for that deployment for a year. After he got back from there, we got to go to shore duty and we were stationed back home near WI. It was a wonderful 2 years of refreshment for our family! Then he got picked to go to NY for a tour of recruiting, which got cut short...thank the Lord!! Then he got the job he really wanted and he is back on another ship out here in WA again.

He's not on deployment yet, but he's just, well, gone. He'll be gone a lot this year...and next year...he's on a ship! There are 2 sayings you hear a lot in the Navy, "Haze gray and underway" and "Sailors belong on ships and ships belong at sea". Many non-military people don't understand that it's not just the deployment. Ships are gone A LOT and it doesn't always mean they are deployed, but it does mean he is away from us. Also, many non-military people do not understand that I can not talk about ships schedule. So you can ask me if he's home or not and I can tell you, but if he's home, I can't tell you for how long... and if he's gone, I can't tell you when he'll be back. And I definitely can't tell you when the deployment is! Plus a lot of the time...I don't even know myself! It's really hard in today's social media age to not talk about it. It's really not safe for me to talk about him being gone all the time. Plus, we just aren't supposed to!

But what I CAN talk about are my feelings!

I forgot what it was like for him to be away! I forgot how I go from feeling like I have a pretty normal life to feeling completely cut off from my spouse. I can not call him and most of the time, he can not call me. We can not skype. I can email him, and hopefully he will get it and hopefully he'll have time to respond...but usually he only has time for a quick I love you note. So I can email him this long email talking to him about all the things going on here with the kids and how much I miss him and talk about things I have been wanting to talk to him about like which preschool should we choose, and maybe we'll change homeschool curriculums next year, and what do you think about going away for Easter if you are home, and many other things that you would just talk to your spouse about when they get home from work or after you have the kids all tucked into bed at night. When I tuck my kids into bed at night...my house is eerily quiet and lonely. And if and when I get a response to my email it usually says something like this, "Beautiful, thank you so much for your email. I love and miss you so much. Hopefully we'll talk soon. Love, Mr. M". And I will tear up and I will be so grateful that he had a moment to let me know how much he loves me.

I forgot how hard it can be on the kids. The first couple days are great! We just plug along and stick to our routine. Then about day 3 I notice the kids are being pretty crabby with each other and pretty crabby with me. They miss their Daddy. When he comes home at the end of the day when he's here, it's a big celebration! Whoever hears the garage door or sees him walk in the door first yells, "Daddy's home!!" And all the kids go running to him and hug him and cheer for him...this is EVERY day. So when he doesn't come home, I don't hear much about it until bedtime. Then I hear things like, "I really miss Daddy." "Will Daddy be home soon?" "Dear God, please take care of Daddy while he is away from us." Sometimes there are frowns, sometimes there are teary eyes. But as I tuck them into bed, I just remind them how much their Daddy loves them and I pray with them and kiss them goodnight...and hope that it can be enough.

But I have not forgotten how blessed I am. Blessed that I have such an amazing husband who loves me so much, blessed to have my wonderful children, blessed to have family and friends who love me and support me as best they can when he is away, blessed that my husband has come home to me when so many others have not. This I have not forgotten.