Little Man said to me the other day, "Mom, I have never heard God speak to me." He's 5! Almost 6, but seriously! It was a deep thought. Not just a random child like thought. I told him that when he prays, he needs to be quiet and listen for God's still, small voice. Later at bedtime, he prayed one of his amazing prayers and then he asked his Dad to be quiet with him so that he can listen for God. Then he said, "I still don't hear anything." Mr. M went into a deeper discussion about what it's like to hear God. I don't know if he understands or not, it's something that a lot of adults even struggle with.
When Little Man was younger, a Pastor gave us a word that God had something big for him. God has a calling on his life. When I listen to his prayers, I believe it! I can't even explain it. He prays with his whole heart, he prays about things that God lays on his heart. He prays for his Dad when he is gone, that he will be safe, that he will do a great job, that he will keep America safe, and that he won't miss us too much and be sad.
I wonder if by him wanting to hear from God, if he is looking for some reassurance. To know that God is listening, that He hears him. Tonite, I will be talking to him about how one of the main ways that God speaks to us is through His word. I will be sharing some scriptures with him that I hope will comfort him and give him peace in his heart.
Yesterday was also a rough day for Princess. She has been teary all week. She really doesn't want Daddy to leave again. Her heart is broken. She has a list of things she wants to do before he leaves again and she was feeling like her list was getting longer and none of it was getting done. I feel like no matter how much we do or how much of the list gets checked off...it won't be enough. He will still miss her birthday, and family camp, and camping, and everything fun that we will do this summer.
Mr. M and I went with her on Sunday up to the altar to be prayed for. I thought she would feel better after that but she said to me, "Mom, I'm not afraid, I just don't want him to leave again. I want him here." So we are going to look up some scriptures for her that God will give her comfort. That He will take away the sadness and the ache in her heart.
Tink has really been vying for his attention this week as well. She just wants him to herself. She wants to talk to him and share her heart and what's going on in her life. It's hard with 3 other siblings who also need him. She is a little more withdrawn and I worry that she doesn't talk about her feelings at all. She spends a lot of time reading her Bible and I am hoping that she is finding comfort in that.
Scooter is just so happy Daddy is home and wants him to do everything with him. But he doesn't really even understand that Daddy will be leaving again, or for how long. When Mr. M is gone, Scooter cries for him.
Lord, please comfort my children. Speak to their hearts and let them know you are near. Help me to guide them in your word and in their lives. Take the sadness out of this house and bring us a joy and a peace that passes ALL understanding. Amen.
